This is Too Honest and Humiliating but Right Now I Don’t Care

  1. I missed you when you were far away from me
  2. and I miss you now, with your back facing my front
  3. you don’t want me to touch you
  4. that is all I ever want to do
  5. I destroy everything that I love
  6. I wish someone would fight for my shitty self
  7. I don’t know how to care without caring too much
  8. I don’t know how to want someone and not need them
  9. I want to figure out these things
  10. I cry at times that never make sense
  11. I keep people around who don’t treat me very well
  12. I don’t act in a way that I should be treated very well
  13. When I’m sad, I drink too much, then feel worse
  14. I don’t know what I am doing
  15. I had two cats but now I don’t anymore
  16. I miss them and wish I could hang out with them still
  17. They would hold me when you refuse to
  18. I could fall asleep to the white noise of their purring
  19. It felt so nice to be needed
  20. I wish that you needed me like I want you